Do you really wanna know me? Do you really wanna know me? I could say it - Hell I could even spray it Don't delay it - If you want it, you can get it I can flip it in a minute, I can rip & tear this shit to shreds And I can hit the beat harder, leave your favorite rapper dead I can change the whole flow, in the middle of the verse - start droppin turds, so absurd, got your moms outside pukin on the curb - rippin out her perm cause she knew her little baby wouldn't learn Now just maybe you'll get a turn - step towards the heat get your whole ass burned - a whole aspirin won't work - Sure as hell won't change how bad your ego hurt - eat the dirt- See my shirt? Scientist thats my word - yes sir, under pressure, your chest hurts - I bless ya - With a lyrical lecture, let me catch you - I'll have you sweatin in your sweatshirt All i really wanna know is Do you think you could catch me, if I start runnin? Poundin the pavement got my heartbeat gunnin, it's so funny - I see you behind me - I see you ridin my tail but when it's final I don't think you're gonna find me - I got way better timing - And the second hand says "right this minute" take flight you won't confine me - You can't deny me - And if you try to trip me I won't slip, I'll just sidestep your shit - Runnin by - Wavin' hello so kindly - Conniving your mind be - So maybe you should just drive the scenic route - Slow down & just sight see - And you just might be able to see me - Swingin so high from a vine, tree-to-tree - You can believe I go the distance - Persistence, envision the mission, take the same bullshit outta commission, try to catch this Runnin and running - I get Runnin and running - We get Runnin and running - So start Runnin and running - And keep The mass of men serve the state thus, not as men mainly, but as machines, with their bodies. They are the standing army, and the militia, jailers, constables, posse comitatus, etc. In most cases there is no free exercise whatever of the judgement or of the moral sense; but they put themselves on a level with wood and earth and stones; and wooden men can perhaps be manufactured that will serve the purpose as well.

They don't like when you're lookin in the mirror to see your reflection - Recollection of your time spent - So here's some misdirection - Take your seat to the left, Stop lookin in the right direction - That's their way of the deflectin and wrecking every speck of deception to get their message across - Regardless of your hesitation they can't wait - And they won't - To put a lock on your brain - And throw away the key - The only key to unlockin the secrets of their insanity - the man in me wants to stand up, and release the beast - But how can i? When I'm bein hunted down cause their sharks need somethin to eat - I'm just a small fish, in an ocean of sea - Motion sickness need some relief - And if you believe, in a supreme being - Don't you think he'd look at all that we're seeing and just...? Take your system and burn it down If there was a god he wouldn't take this he'd Take your system and burn it down Start over Start over Take your victims, release them now There are too many grave diggers gettin paid Take your victims, release them now Start over Start over I truly believe our forefathers had the right intentions - But if you look at the midsection of the timeline - Go behind enemy lines you find - everytime - big brothers mind went awry - the power lines got defined - went from benign to no stoppin at the sky - I wonder why - And I wonder why we try sometimes - There's only 13 bloodlines runnin our lives - Which means you and I - aint gotta chance so we better run and hide cause they'll try to divide - pit one against the other and bet and the first to die - And if they're bettin on me they might be bettin on the wrong guy - Cause no matter the price of a life it won't top the price of my pride - So I won't have a tie to the malicious demise, fictitious disguise, when I'm only hopin for peace in my life What does death have to do with your system? You're the victim? You're the victim? What does death have to do with your system? You're the victim? We're the victims

Give them your tired, hungry and your poor They suit 'em up & ship 'em off to the war Controlling every aspect of our lives - It aint right - But I try to decide - You won't cry when I die so I say Are you lookin out for me? In your hidden agenda Are you lookin out for you? The scientist - So here I come again - Can you pencil me in when you suspend that devilish grin? You revel in sin - While I'm developin this & I'll break the magicians code to expose your fuckin method - Not a weapon if you can't use it - You abuse it til I lose it & then I'm bendin over backwards to prove it through my music - I call your bluff - I see the way you play your game - Stop stallin over nothin - I aint the only one sayin - What a shame - So we're ashamed - You take the blame - Our money game is low - Your money game is off the chain so make a change rearrange some brains - Turn on tune in and drop out that's the way - And if you continue with your triple-sided shape don't make a face when we decide to lap you in this race - so if you get a chance or if you're not to busy - we got some shit to ask you about your budget policy Behind reality there is a broken dream Behind every stitch in time there is a broken seam Freemason shit - So there you go again - The square, the plumb, the compass will point direction - methodical correction, social dissection, corporate ressurrection, circle of deception - Fallacy to the 33rd degree, 3 plus 3 plus 1 heaven equals 7 - That's continental - Perfect number perfect square - Perfect people and perfect bloodlines will make a perfect pair - And then act like you really fuckin care when the rich get richer and the poor get welfare - Where's the public healthcare? What you stomach's not fair - It's fuckin hell down here, bet it's heaven up there - Set your standard in your chair - When you lie I'm well aware - Then I question if you care - Fire's deep in your stare - Mothers weep in despair - Sons that bleed it's not fair - But you go on with your business - Can I get a witness?

You can doubt it but it's obvious you don't know nothing about it - They keep it cloudy I'm waiting for the day - I see 'em scatter Pull the pin and throw the grenade - I'll watch 'em scatter Ask 'em if they're ready to be saved - I see 'em scatter Blood when it all fades - I'll watch 'em scatter Just imagine the day you wake up and there's panic all around you - What you gonna do once they found you? Incredible twist of fate when you bow down to and they devour you - You're left to scour in surroundings that the flowers do - Or that the flowers did - Hours twisted past - Minutes of blasted glass - Twisted massive disaster - How'd you miss it? - Last breath you better cherish it and kiss it and pray to fuckin god that you keep livin' - Demon responsible for that sin - and took a chance last minute in their plan to keep winning - Destroy everything til there aint nothin left - The ploy that they're plottin is a bed for the dead - And that boy stinkin rotten is your best friend's friend - The noise & lights blinkin, stop and check your head - If you think it couldn't happen better check again - And if you think it can stop it too late now you're dead Animalistic masochistic division of your system has risen - Implementin sadistic dementin infections in 'em - They're bitten by the bug and the poison seepin in - Venomous potions of the love diseased from within and they're reachin - but the grasp is too weak to be the best decision - They're thinkin that they are free but the end is ressurrection - Sinnin from the blast - Leavin winners assed-out and grinnin - You're thinkin of the past, not so vivid - Livid - Will a different mask feed the addiction? Whip & lash - Friction that seals a quicker decision? Make it last cause healin takes more than some stitches and you're wishin you could grasp - The meaning of the pistons chuggin along to a village in the distance - Permittin 66 bombs to switch its place with the linen in a porcelain kitchen of a kid - Unfortunate next of kin Can we just sit back and watch the world crumble down? The shatterings of buildings are a soulful stirring sound - Until we drown in the face of oblivion - Consider the vision of the mission that I've been givin - Anyone can see but some are just a little too blind - Look into the sky - Askin why? But seems they never got a reply - Divine crimes in these times of lies - A soul begins to die, someone's momma starts to cry - And I guess they never try and I guess they never will - Still a few things left and we aint even made it over the hill - Where's the thrill? Like it's some kind of pill - Still a shit load of debt just add it to the bill And you wanna use my money to rebuild what's broken? - Ripped from the headlines while your gun's still smokin - Got us armed to fight with weapons of the heartbroken - Your megaphone in my ear appears softspoken

If pro is the opposite of con, what's the opposite of progress? Well that's congress - And if you notice - I aint catchin no backdraft or flack from the voters - So that shows us - That those devoted to the prose from your wrinkled nose, they know about then dough from Big Tobacco - Go behind your window - Let the whole thing show - You just keep shovin it down our throats - And I'm hopin that you're focused - Sixteen ways to flow it just gropin - The track - lay back in the cut - Sit back and relax - Give a fuck throw 'em up turn 'em - And give what? I give everything for you to just hate me - And that's okay B - Cause I'm just waiting - For the right time to blow my fuckin lid & let go of your fuckin mind Believe everything that you read & that you listen to They should just leave it alone cause all the victims know Believe everything that you read & that you listen to I should just go with the flow you know I'm twisted though Believe everything that you read & that you listen to Confusion runnin rampant don't know who to listen to Believe everything that you read & that you listen to Intuition on the fritz I'm just too twisted to I rock a red rag hangin out the crip side - Not cause I wanna die - Cause I wanna unify us all - And that's pretty much black & white - Pretty much the message to it all G - O.D. from the pain & medicine - When pharmaceutical shit seems to stop workin - Flirtin with disaster - A master of our domain is coming faster - Something has to give - Someone wants to live - And that someone is me - breath in, deep in, let it seep in, you feel cloudy I feel drowsy - How's it happen again? How's it get twisted? Different perspective glistens again - Just wishin again - And the evil will just cease to exist - The reason exists - Its just everyone just chooses to twist and keep bendin shit - So I finish it - Get your head out your ass and just witness it

I got the hunger, the drive - Inevitable struggle to survive - but will I decide to lose my pride and end the ride? Now look at me as I roll back down the hill - Another pill - In the form of a thrill - To get my fill I decide my own will - My own way - Will today be the gray? Or a different place that's standin with different people? Each is standin in my way - Let 'em say what they want and focus on myself - Hocus pocus the flow so you magicians should know I won't melt You can beat me up but I beat you down It's simple cause I don't give a fuck that you trash my sound - You can't fuckin rap & you can't flow - you're a fuckin clown - Don't believe me? You don't come around - Don't you come around Seems like everywhere I look nowadays - People playin and sprayin the same game - Swangin the same way - But still tryin to say that they doin they damn thing - When the only thing that changed is the weight on the pinky ring - That's such a faget thing - Seems like the only way you stackin change is sellin your name - makin the same thing over and over again - I'm rollin harder than before a freight train comin to get you mayne All that bullshit that you're talkin it aint gonna end You're not my foe or my friend you're just another man Another man with me times that we spend but you keep holding me back I think I'm fallin again - fallin again Can you see me roll back down the hill? I'm reminded of a time where I got excited to rhyme and you got excited to rhyme -Or better time for some kind - cause you wanted to get high - That's all you saw in your eyes - Didn't see my mind trying to rewind and unpeel the disguise - So I tried everything I could - Should you listen? Get motivated? I was hopin you would - But you had other plans - Damage that revenge attack - Still a lack on your part - Made me suffer from that and now I resent that I can build it up but you tear it down - And you might just not give a fuck but I mean it now - You can play your game and you'll fail & you'll fail at it - Truth it comin out - Thought you buried it? Thought you buried it? When you're in my flow already know that I'm better than most of ya'll for sure - Truth hurts now they know that I gotta gotta go go - Oh oh oh boy play you like a bitch - hit you on the tip if you trip you can get bit - Cause my shit don't slip - Spit a hit from my lips - If you wanna get lit get pissed and just quit What does your music mean anymore? Don't you come around

Please believe it that I see the struggle and I feel the devil and I hear the method and I - God I feel like exposing tonight - Disclosin tonight - Cause I love & hate life - And I don't wanna try - but I gotta know why - I see the blood in my eyes - I see the truth in your lies - Taste the salt when you cry - Smell the hate in my life - Feel the fear when I die - But touch a life if I try Where do I turn when it's all been run down? The roads been shut down and their song just runs out? The calm need calmed down - They're gone but I belong to the dawn and I'm up all night long I've fallen - Is that an angel or the devil callin? Is that a savior? Is it melancholy? Destined for coffins - Atrophy dissolving - I'm hardly responsive I'm sorry but you got me startled - I've dis-bonded my armory wondering The moon darkens down in my eyes And the sun shines bright on yours You can try to lie but you wear a disguise And I see right through for sure Good or bad? Wrong or right? I'll beat today or skip tonight - I'll leave today or strip my rights - I'm so confused on who to fight - More bad luck - Stack it on up - It's not enough and it's not too tough - He likes it rough, bet he gives up - Bet I can't, can't give up Will it stop? Will it end? Will I die? Will I live? Will I mend? Well I can try Everything has a balance in life, so find the dark part hiding in the light, know that everything will be alright Take the sharp point of the knife, cause when you're fightin the fight, you gotta learn to love & hate life Everybody wants to do something but yet they do nothing - I'm so tired of struggling - Developing complexes it's gettin too tough and I'm wondering what the purpose is? Cause from my perspective my existence is purposeless - Do I deserve the shit I get? Is this a test that is given? A quiz on character improvement? Or just a movement - Pursuant to a blue state of mind with the attitude to prove it - Don't lose it - Who you know that could always get the short end of the stick? Who you know that could jump right the fuck back up on that bitch? After fallin off of it without a care in the world and not the character to quit - I'm so damaged that's it - But hit or miss I pay no mind to it cause you might be blind - But I'm wide-eyed and lookin to find what I'm searchin for in my life so can you get me come on see the light

She sits and sips on her cigarette - She wants to leave but don't want regret - He tried to change but she could care less - He can forgive but he can't forget She sits and sips on her margarita - She loves her man he would never cheat her - He kissed her hand he would never beat her - But can he love her if he can't believe her Yeah she takes a big drag from her cigarette - Cause every single second of every minute is like the creepin sound of death - In her chest - Who woulda guessed that the stress would make her wanna leave the nest and put this ever-changing incessant mess to rest - And you can bet that she tried every trick in the book - One last look at her hand before she folded and shook her head in shame - So much pain in the price of the game, and the rearrangement of the frame and the state of the brain - Could drive anybody down a whole different pathway or lane - Still she decides to stay - right now there aint no other way - And right now there aint no sunshine today - So dark she's so blind today She sits and thinks about her situation - She's tired of it all and feelin complacent - He thinks about her but he don't think he can face it - Another heart in the dumpster another love that is wasted She sits and chats on the internet - She's all alone and she needs a friend - He's in her face but he's not in her head - He's away and he's gone and she feels like he's dead So many things went so wrong - So many long nights on telephones - No lights, in the bed alone - More fights, and she cries but only if alone - If they could only get along - If they could only stop and stall - If they could only beat it all then they could move on to tomorrow - Or a new day - In a new way - See a new shade - Of an old grey - Take a simple step back, that's what you could say - Not a game they should play - So if they both decide they can't take no more then they both have surrendered to the enemy in the war - Not a friend to be - Condescending things said out of spite defensively - So questioning - Was it meant to be just a movie scene? A lucid dream? Or was it all just maybe a little too real and the fear of commitment has broken the seal?

Yeah I define me, you can try to materialize me So much for perfect timing, cause I need a little reminding The breeze is blowing and the windchimes are chiming Musical love comes out in my rhyming Then I try to see what's behind me - About face to the world around me Turn and face the strange it will return someday and if you listen to what I say, everything will be okay This emotions like running a race I'm never gonna win Will I cross the finish line or will I keep stumbling? I'm running out of time as I lose my breath again Your soul looks so inviting, you shake my bones and you tantalize me Move so quick I see you flutter and writhing, You shed your skin and then begin your multiplying This emotions like running a race I'm never gonna win Will I cross the finish line or will I keep stumbling? I'm running out of time as I lose my breath again I'm tarnished but a piece is so shiny - My skin is raw from your pleading and crying Yeah I lie when the truth is too blinding, Like every other person who's climbing My loving heart, the color of nightime - Redemption for emotion, target in my sightline Even with shadows burning my eyes, I still pray for the day I can see alright

Too many voices, will I be heard? Too many choices for you to hear words - So I stay on top of it and I do what I gotta - While the days get colder and the nights get hotter - Oughta really find a way to change we got a shot - And I'll try to find a way while you sit and do nada - Not a damn thing change cause we all stay the same - Too scared to make a difference - Too poor to buy a brain - Insane things happen when we become inane - It's a shame bodies dropping, and we all feel the pain - Structure's only as strong as the link in the chain - Or the drowning of your thoughts in the depths of your brains - Big banks break trust there's no honest in the game - So the song remains the same but they sideshift the blame - Cry tears of sorrow in the blood drenched rain - Screaming so loud - Screaming so loud They're all sayin - All you gotta do is believe They're all sayin - Aww you gotta keep the dream They're all sayin - Everything you do is believe They're all sayin - Yeah you gotta keep the dream They're all sayin - All you gotta do is believe They're all sayin - Everyone just keep the dream They're all sayin - Everything you gotta believe They're all sayin - They're all sayin Whatchu gonna do? Run up in my house with your fuckin gun out? It aint no secret - Everybody knows that the system been leaking - Everybody froze, no one rose, now we're sinkin - The study shows but you disposed of the link then - The brink then, our toes have just sinked in - Don't get me thinkin - I'm on the edge and I'm ready to commit a dark sin, so what? You can barge in, warrantless, takin shit, include a cup of my piss - Diluted, brain wash me again, I'll get a witness - You get a complex - Because you love power - Your move - Who's next? Abuse necks - Reduce less to a speck all the self-respect - And put me on trial - And you're the fuckin jury - No matter what I fuckin say you'll just use it to hurt me - Diverting - I'm flirting with a sure thing - So is it all just a waste of my time? Divine power brings only power to the divine They're all sayin - All you gotta do is believe They're all sayin - Aww you gotta keep the dream They're all sayin - Everything you do is believe They're all sayin - Yeah you gotta keep the dream Whatchu gonna do? Run up in my house with your fuckin gun out?

500 pieces just workin on the edge - Just tryin to figure out the fuckin puzzle in my head - Say, I can put it together - Get it together - Fill in the center 500 pieces just workin on the edge - Just tryin to figure out the fuckin puzzle in my head - Say, I can put it together - And get it together - Fill in the center - Maybe finish in November Sometimes I wonder, will the smile on your face turn around and just crumble - Stumble away - Run away - Feels like it thundered today - I'm wonderin why I don't say I love you today - And I feel the rain - Yeah I feel the pain - Deep in my soul - it come and hit me again - It can't hit me again - Will it toss me down the stairs? Will it break me again? Or will it fake me again? I don't know why - I don't know why I argue with you - Why I cry, when my eyes are so dry? When you wonder about all the things I say and wonder if everything is a lie - I don't know why - I don't know why I won't fit in - Can I please fit in to the piece of the puzzle - Piece of the puzzle - Piece of the puzzle that you're tryin to place me in 500 pieces just workin on the edge - Just tryin to figure out the fuckin puzzle in my head - Say, I can put it together - And get it together - Fill in the center - Maybe finish in November Can I get the pieces to fit if they don't wanna? Sometimes I think about it - And if I think real hard, then I wonder if I should put a ring around it? If I should even try, when you wanna lie - And even if I wouldn't cry, well, I gotta die - And I don't know why - I don't know why I won't fit in - Ay man let me fit in - Let me get in - Let me flip it - Bitch I catch you slippin I'm trippin, you get the dick then - Cause I'm addicted to your smell to the way that you feel, and everything in your hell, of your every day existence - And like a witness I'm takin it for what it is - And not the grimness - And I'm the shit bitch - And everything that I do, everything is for you - Everything is for us - It's not enough - It's not enough man - It's not enough man - It's not enough 500 pieces just workin on the edge - Just tryin to figure out the fuckin puzzle in my head - Say, I can put it together - And get it together - Fill in the center - Maybe finish in November

Another gloomy night in hell as the clock strikes 12 1,2,3 another chime of the bell - Tensions swell as my eyes wide open - Cause every minute got me hopin my mind would quit rolling - Time get stolen - Finally fell asleep - But if tomorrow's the same, I'll be feelin a repeat - Steady dose of weed, phenin for Lunesta - The rest of the time just pains in the chest - Another set of rhymes to finish the best of - You rappers can't compare - My lyrics will bless ya - Now I'm feelin like I got a third wind - insomnia death grip and I just can't win - Head achin so bad you'd think I pushed out a kid - Just ran out of weed and stoned sober again - Not a one-night stand, it's an everyday thing - Mood swings, strange things, and cloudy angels that might sing Another gloomy night in hell as my time gets stolen 1, 2, 3 another chime of the bell Tried to sleep in my bed but my mind stays broken Everything is quiet as my thoughts start to yell I don't wanna go to sleep I don't wanna lie I don't wanna go to sleep I don't wanna cry I don't wanna go to sleep - No I don't wanna go to sleep tonight What I keep under my bed ultimately diseased my head - In a dream can I be beseached or reached out to in a time of death? Or if I slip will I trip and fall and not get back up this time? Grip in my fist but I lose it and try to find another rhyme inside - Cause I got nothin else to do - But I got so much to say - And I'm hopin to sleep a wink or two, but nothin goes my way - And when nothing goes my way, I just sit back and write - And it seems like a complaint but it's more an extension of my mind - And line after line, the time passes by - Exhausted from the losses and it's hiding deep inside - Should I let it all out or should stuff it in a bottle? If I stuff it in a bottle will I ever get to see tomorrow? Another gloomy night in hell as my time gets stolen 1, 2, 3 another chime of the bell Tried to sleep in my bed but my mind stays broken Everything is quiet as my thoughts start to yell

Consciousness is a river - In that river we do flow - Acrimonious dreams make me shiver - A dreamscape - A new plateau Stale picture frames and the meaningless lights - To the edge of my mind to the edge of the night - To a new life - In a simpler time - Silhouette of reality - Which one is right? Every time I go to sleep I'm always trapped in the heat - It's like I'm down on my knees or a battle with the sheets - Disturbing - You would be upset if you could get a quote unquote nights rest - Like a woven nest - I protect as best as I can - It's inevitable how these nightmares are so incredible - Vulnerable to a whole other dimension - Not to mention the ever growing tension I feel - When it seems so real, shouldn't be so real - This shit is fucked up, I've had enough, Get me out - Put me in the ground - I'd rather die than see it all come back around - Come down to a battle with the real world as opposed the fake - Yet another mistake our creator made, when he puts us all together - Cause when I wake up - It won't be any better Stale picture frames and the meaningless lights - To the edge of my mind to the edge of the night - To a new life - In a simpler time - Silhouette of reality - Which one is right? Have you ever had that feeling all up inside of your mind - Like every other night - Like every fuckin time - that you try to go to sleep - But the demons they just creep - Monster in my bed layin underneath the sheets - And my dreams, they just feed - But my life begins to fade - Will I see another day? Will my heart lose the beat? Cause I'm trying - But all I seem to feel is pain - All I see is the fuckin rain - So I try to drift away but my dreams they get no better - can we change the winter weather? Better get my shit together - Rather not - Not sleep at all than to dream of bleeding redder - Get more pleasure from a measure then a bed of heaven feathers - And I let my cerebellum defend my head with weapons stabbin my subconscious again - leavin it dead - And I placin bets on everything I have that tonight I'm dreaming bad again Stale picture frames and the meaningless lights - To the edge of my mind to the edge of the night - To a new life - In a simpler time - Silhouette of reality - Which one is right?

Inside deep recesses draw a sinister plot against the falling clouds - A black sunrise skirted my mind, I cry, occupied by the ruse every hour - A madman thriving on the edge of his seat - Like a pent up bullet, cocked, ready to release - Eclipsed feelings of self-denial are fleeting - Memories are an ocean, specifically a coral reef Blank cavity to be filled by Novocain - From a soul, dumb and dead, by others left to blame - Sharp torture test enclose my lifestyle - Psychedelic tissues and putrid smells are vial but This is how I rise through a harlequin's eyes - a darker sunrise This is how I rise through a harlequin's eyes - a darker sunrise Hate the sin, don't hate the sinner tonight - Hate the sin, don't hate the sinner tonight Each passing day I'm still time-flying - High above the waves, is this hello or goodbye? Is there anything left to say? Cause I've been trying, with no specific reason why - Every mood changes like a season, Can I believe it won't turn bleak and have to go and ask why? - I stay just lookin at things - Anything you bring to go and poke myself in the eye Faint-hearted friends and our facade trends - Go back, far back, way back, hide them - Surveillance so they keep a watchful eye - Sneak up on you, creep up on you when the times go dry This is how I rise through a harlequin's eyes - a darker sunrise This is how I rise through a harlequin's eyes - a darker sunrise Hate the sin, don't hate the sinner tonight - Hate the sin, don't hate the sinner tonight Voyages lay a lover's coil in the sea of ripe intuition and broken brain dreams - Inhibitions that stalk at the back where you breath and your only punishment is a fleeting frenzy so

Heavenly father looking down from above - Seems this life is the worst kind of love - Push and shove through the grind everytime - With nothing but anxiety and the next hit weighin on my mind - No trust for the ones who pushed me away - The one who sat and listened when you had nothing to say - it's okay - I'm doin things my own way - Stay fake and do the things that you lied about anyway - Today I have absolutely nothing to say about this life - They say pain is pleasure but I'm only feelin strife - Cause everything I do is never enough - Never appreciated when the times got tough - Now I'm just down on my luck - Down on my luck - down on my luck - Just down on my luck - Just down on my luck You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain I don't know why I am feelin this way You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain I try everytime - every other day - Everything just goes the same fuckin way - And I don't care anymore, don't care where it started - How I'm gonna end it - Where I'm departin - Everything is the stress - Everything is a blessing - Everything is the pain in me - Everything is the stress - Everything but a blessing - Everything is the pain in me - You see I, I try but, everything just comes back to the start - I try, and I realize that everything just wants to seem to fall apart - Everytime that I try, I try to get back up - Everytime just down on my luck - Everytime, everytime I try to get back up - Everytime just down on my luck You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain I don't know why I am feelin this way You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain Is it a shitty year, shitty week, or just a shitty day? When the bad comes in twos you know it comes in tres - 3 things just to ruin it someway - I got blasted in a car but a old man - Lost my job, bout to lose a damn good man - Pancreatic cancer, my uncle, he's got it - Who's got the answer? Who's got the cure? Better stop it - Guess you could say that my life isn't as bad as his and shit it just makes me wish that I'd stop all of my bitching - Just some things that I can't control - Gotta be positive - But how can I be positive when everything is so negative? Everything is so negative - Everything just bearin down on my chest - Makin me run out of breath - Out of breath You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain I don't know why I am feelin this way You got me so numb - I'm feelin no pain

With this pen I erase my face and fly back to a time in space where I sustained without pain, And everything was a different shade and - I don't know what happened to it - Movin fluid then suddenly lose it - Will I beat it? Will I go through with it? Heartbeat in my chest and I choose it This letter's addressed to whom it concerns - Read the words very carefully, through you I'll be heard - In the afterlife - I didn't mean to leave in a fashion that left you feeling sick, mourning, hatin my passin - Askin why I did it - But it just isn't that simple - If you really knew why I did it - I'd be who it's written to - Eighteen years through these eyes I seen pain - The world lies beneath a picture I see in the frame - A story stuck in purgatory, but that's my day to death - My eyes were sunk in, my frame was a thin as a page - Runnin sick from nightmares then insomnia plagued - My life right where once the piece I had laid - And the fights right there but too much had been paid - I got nothing left, just the words on the page - So I'm sayin I'm leaving, I'm thinkin I can't agree with breaking permanent pieces of people I know believe in me Suicide note, do or die note - Hopin on the time to arrive when I can just let it go - I just let it show - through the words that I say, I'm feelin the rage, the blood on the page, I write a suicide note Cause I'm hoping for the moment when I'm lowered deep down in the dirt - Cause when no ones around there's no way to get hurt - When I'm making a sound still no way to be heard So I figure with this itchy trigger finger I might let it get a little bit more intimate before I put to bed all these ridiculous thoughts in my head - Lightin candles as I try to handle seein myself in the mirror on the mantle, looking like I'm already dead - Feelin blind I can't hear to decipher all the shit that's makin me see red - I can't finish anything that I start - Gotta keep it together - Though I'm fallin apart - My god I'm weepin forever, through the hole in my heart - Caught 'em sleepin together, now I take it too far - Dig the knife in my arm, release the energy - Done - And I can travel on, but before I'm gone guess I gotta write a Suicide note, do or die note - Hopin on the time to arrive when I can just let it go - I just let it show - through the words that I say, I'm feelin the rage, the blood on the page, I write a suicide note The question is, I wonder was you feeling me? Did I become what you thought I'd be? And were the times of peace? Or just signs of me on a blinder side, aligned with grief? And did you pay attention to me? Messages sent, reflect from your direction back to me - Left blind, assuming, all my time was ruined, you were on my mind all the times that you lied and I knew it - But I aint mad at ya - I was keepin the strength - All the lies and deceit to fake fate that kept me straight - At a great rate - It kept me safe and now I'm fallin - You know how it goes when the reaper comes callin - Til dried eyes are cried out - I'm a leave you with this - My last secret of peace you might of missed - I was the beast in the mist - The man that never is even as half as evil as he really could've been If you're reading this now then I guess you found out - That I can't take any more I live with too much doubt - But stop baby, please don't be sad - Think about the times we laughed after I made you mad - I know I miss your smile and the touch of your lips - I miss the way your hair smells and holding you in my grips - Tell my kids that I love 'em and I tried to be there - But their mom took them away from me without a care - Tell my parents that I'm sorry but they did their best - I'm not as smart as they thought I failed the ultimate test - Steve be somethin great and take pride in our name - Melissa take care of your kids I know they're not ashamed Suicide note, do or die note - Hopin on the time to arrive when I can just let it go - I just let it show - through the words that I say, I'm feelin the rage, the blood on the page, I write a suicide note

I don't know love and you don't know pain Drowning in the mud from the strength of the rain Try to change that tonight I'll be strong Send the rain back and tonight we'll push on How did I get here? Where did I come from? Fire and brimstone bubbling from below - Making deals with the devil a conscience overflow - Now my bridges are burned and no one seems to know, how I stay above water with such an undertow - No trust for the ones who pushed me away, and all the pain - Seems in a way - To be the only thing keeping me going today - I like the way your face is giving me something to say - And how the only thing that makes me smile - Is by hearin you say how I'm such an asshole and you don't know what to do - And how I'm green with envy and that makes you feel so blue - and its true - But the angel on my side has left this time - Fed up with your disguise and your path of constant lies - A constant eye to keep a close watch cause the devil is on my shoulder - tellin me what I got I don't know love and you don't know pain Drowning in the mud from the strength of the rain Try to change that tonight I'll be strong Send the rain back and tonight we'll push on Can you figure it out? Cause see I figured it out - The way we beat each other down - the way we go for 10 rounds - But neither one is knocked out and neither one is knocked down - This shit'll go on all night the way we're dancing around - Serious there is no jokin around - Read my answer cause I've written it down, opened my mouth & said it out loud - If there's a bump in the road can we please drive around - The breeze from a cloud - Scars on my knees from all the kneeling down - Pleading - Statin my peace - All the same reasons why you coming at me - But please understand that I don't understand all the cards in my hand, or the map in my head, or the path of misdirection is tries to embed - No need to leave words unsaid - So let me say it in your ear, so nice and clear - And long as you want me just expect me right here I don't know love and you don't know pain Drowning in the mud from the strength of the rain Try to change that tonight I'll be strong Send the rain back and tonight we'll push on

Fall back - Watch us fall through the cracks again - Weakness becomes strength then - Thrown aside in the pile - is it worth the while to try again? Fly far away from them - Die waiting for encouragement - Where do we start from when it all feels - feels like the end? A weapon within him battlin blasphemous demons, or angels who have fallen - Everything that I saw makes me not trust them or the next man - A cynic forever with a blessin - learned my lesson - Life is just a steppin stone towards a whole other type of larger being's plan - So nothing's being planned and I feel I could go down another broken path anytime again - what comfort will I find again? I feel like I'm behind again - Always on standby - Next in line to pay the man or to have the favor returned - My karma replenished again - Why am I always so far from the finish line or the end? I try to stay independent from the chances that I develop a passion for lettin it all go to my head Fall back - Watch us fall through the cracks again - Weakness becomes strength then - Thrown aside in the pile - is it worth the while to try again? Fly far away from them - Die waiting for encouragement - Where do we start from when it all feels - feels like the end? I can see the sun break the light from my bed - The sight in my eyes changes from brown to green to red - Got my whole vibe empty - See you're leaving me hangin - Aint nobody thankin me -For the beat bangin or the way I try to keep it swanging - But I'm managing - It's so hard when you feel your character's so damaged - And that's the pile of shit I'm standing in As the sun rises we decide if this life is the best one left behind if the best is yet to come - And will I find a key to open doors and unlock minds? And if this shit's on a delay, I will find the time - And it seems like everything is just gettin harder and harder - I find glitches, reposition but still can't find the reason why you act this way - Why you try to destroy my foundation - When it's the only way to progress while you digress back to the stress and I try to be the reason why you see the forest for the trees - A disease infection - Directin the ones who elect the weakest shit out there - So I'm gonna do the best I can - And if you're vexed again - Put your speakers up to 10 and just bend with me